Imagining Fantasies.

They're all in my head. But where else could they be?

First of all, I love to imagine things. You name it. Things that might happen next. Things that I wish could happen. And the not-so-possible things that would surely do me good.

You can say I have an overactive imagination, working full time and is surely not going to stop. Sometimes, I would think of the worst things that could possibly happen when I'm in a certain situation. Like I'm in some sort of a worst-case scenario. I think I got that from my parents, who are always practical in situations. Sometimes, when I'm the unlucky fellow who turns off all the lights downstairs at night, I would hastily turn it off and rush up the staircase, as though I am being chased by an invisible monster. In my mind, there's someone or something there that's just waiting for all the lights to turn off so that it could pounce at me or something like that.

In short, I like to scare myself with all these fantasies.

Well, not all my fantasies are scary and I don't really like to scare myself. I just can't help it nor stop it when the imaginings have begun.

I like to fantasize about things that make me happy like a perfect life or having things I wish I could have. I also like to make up stories about my favorite celebrities and such. I would imagine myself in a favorite TV show or in a movie. I would then draw all the things I have fantasized and well, keep it for old time's sake. I would NEVER let anyone see it, not even my own family.

Sometimes, I don't even realize I am in school or even the fact that I'm actually here when I have these sudden outbursts of fantasies. I guess I got lost in my imagination, away from reality, thanks to this imperfect life of mine.

I think that if I had most of the things I want in life, I could spend less time imagining and more on the reality part because I'd be contented with what is real. But, I guess I have to be contented with what I do have because it's what God gave me. I'm not saying it's wrong to imagine, you actually need to have imagination in order to live a good life. It's just that when you imagine or fantasize about things, you need not to be carried away and dwell in your thoughts forever. No. Someday, you need to snap back into reality and actually work your way to achieve your goals and possibly some of the things you fantasize.

And so, I am ending this blog entry with a quotation from Paul Gauguin:
“I shut my eyes in order to see.”
:D